To be or not to be?

Do i expect and be disappointed, or not expect and hate myself for not tryin to break the glass ceiling?

I am an ambitious person, But sometimes i giv up too…

I had huge plans for myself and some were fantastic…some simple. But as i grew up and as things seemed to not fall into place as it shud, and my optimism seemed to fail.

So recently i had decided to jus stop trying and fighting, to make something out of life and jus go with the flow….and then i wondered, am i doin the rite thing by giving up? I mean i have been thru shit, but i still cud try and achieve rite?

I kept wondering whether i was dissapointed in myself because i expected too much from myself…i mean im no superstar how much ever oprah wud hav me believe!

Everytime, everytime i think of giving up that darn thing called hope pops up and deceives me with dreams and possibilities…But kno wat, im done. Im done here…im gonna chill and take life as it comes and not gonna run the rat race.

Im gonna enjoy this life!Cosif things r to happen theyll happen, no use frettin over it…. Cos if the houseis gonna burn down, one bucket of water will not help…id rather go down in a blaze of glory…

hmm love these songs seem to say what i wanna say in a better way…

Alice in chains – would

Know me broken by my master

teach thee on child of love

hereafter
Into the flood again

same old trip it

was back then

so i made a big mistake

try to see it

once my way

Drifting body it’s sole desertion

flying not yet quite the notion

Into the flood

again

same old trip it was back then

so i made a big

mistake

try to see it once my way

Into the flood

again

same old trip it was back then

so i made a big

mistake

try to see it once my way

Am i wrong?

have i run too far to get home

Have i gone?

and left you here alone

Am I wrong?

have i run

too far to get home, yeah

Have I gone?

and left

you here alone

If i would, could you?

INXS – Pretty Vegas

Falling asleep at the wheel again baby

 
You're drifting over the line (the line) yeah 


Your hands are tight but you're losing grip quickly 


Fix me, can you read the signs? 


Thumbing your way to Vegas, dirty 


And dreaming of the other side 


Save your tears and laughter 


Because it doesn't matter what you find 


It ain't pretty 


After the show 


It ain't pretty when the pretty leaves you 


With no place to go 


If you think you need it 


Here's the place to feed it 


But it ain't pretty 


With everything that you do is wrong 


And you fell like you can barely survive yeah 


When those around you are crumbling downwards 


Buried in the sunset alive 


Thumbing your way to Vegas, dirty 


And screaming like you're back from hell 


Save your dreams and occupations 


Cos' it doesn't matter what you sell 


It ain't pretty 


After the show 


It ain't pretty when the pretty leaves you 


With no place to go 


If you think you want it 


Here's the place to get it 


But it ain't pretty 


The party's over and the road is long 


The party's over and we're moving on 


The party's over and the road is long 


So if you think you want it 


Then just come out and say it 


It aint pretty 


Falling asleep at the wheel again baby 


You're drifting over the line (the line) 


You're hands are tight but you're losing grip quickly 


Fix me, can you read the signs 


Thumbing your way to Vegas, dirty 


And dreaming like you're outta control 


Save your tears and laughter 


Because this is the ride 


And this is the show 


It ain't pretty 


After the show 


It ain't pretty when the pretty leaves you 


With no place to go 


So if you think you want it 


Just come in and get it 


It ain't pretty

~ by tia on January 16, 2007.