All she could think of was – He used me.And he had a good laugh about it.

How could she have been so…stupid? She was an intelligent woman, smart enough to handle anything. But…

Was it worth it? Didn’t she, being as intelligent as she claimed to be, expect this? Wasn’t she always the drama queen, a cosmic joke even?

She trusted him. That was her mistake.She had nobody to blame but herself.Guilt was the bullet that was triggered by her circumstance. Life had loaded it and waited on her to pull the trigger on her self.

And now she was a joke in the workplace. She was the one that yielded to her emotions.The one who broke hearts and now was on her knees because she got hers broken. Foolish woman!

There were two paths ahead. Both had thorns. Did she expect anything better? Frankly, no. She was used to things going so wrong, that if she was truly happy it scared her. She could either be brave about it and say – F*** you. I stand by what I did. Or try and run away.

She stood up and put on her bravest smile. She loved it that they were the cutest couple. She thought the girl was an absolute sweetheart and the guy..was a jerk. But well a nice jerk (she chuckled).

She decided that this was it. She had sold herself, they were laughing at her. She was gonna laugh with them.

She vowed to never trust again. To never defect from her original intention of staying single.

She was gonna slide.

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

I wanna wake up where you are
I won’t say anything at all
So why don’t you slide

Yeah we’re gonna let it, slide

Don’t you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don’t suppose I’ll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can’t change
I’ll live around it

And I’ll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married

– Goo Goo Dolls, Slide


~ by tia on August 26, 2008.

6 Responses to “Slide”

  1. Tell me this is fictional

  2. *smiles*

  3. i hope its fictional…in all probably it ain’t…right?
    usually blogposts don’t affect me this way but yeah, this one did. Maybe because it was sketchy on a lot of details and left a lot to the reader’s imagination..which makes you 9or atleast me) derive the worst possible…
    hope you remain this strong…

  4. *Sandeep
    This is fictional.


    I can’t comment on the authenticity of this post, too many things at stake. I am strong, wouldn’t have it any other way 🙂

  5. whatever that means!

  6. *Sandeep
    Oh come on, don’t sulk!

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